Hi Carré and thank you for this amazing Substack. Somehow there is a surreal component to it that I can read all those fascinating and moving and also sad and crazy and wild stories of your life you share here. I think I first saw you on stage about a decade ago in Germany and I would never have thought that I will be able to read this one day written by that amazing female I saw that night. And yes you were surrounded by males on stage and by some famous ones haha..but you were the absolute ⭐ and that raw and real emotion that you transported transfixed me.
Sounds cheesy and I am not a native in English and cannot find a cooler way to say it unfortunately. But even when the audience was a total bore you still had that energy. I rarely see people on stage with this special gift even though there are many great performers out there who have their own way but this "thing" that you have is something that always fascinated me.
I first recognised it in Nick Cave when I saw him play live for the first time decades ago and at some point when I randomly commented on Instagram I tried to say this in the three sentences that fit in an Instagram comment but now that here there is the opportunity to write more I really wanted to say that to you. You are as good on stage as Nick Cave, PJ Harvey, Iggy Pop etc. It's the same energy, the same boldness and emotion and I absolutely admire this and it makes me feel everything at once, it makes me feel that everything makes sense for that moment in time, it really has a cathartic and healing effect on me.
You deserve audiences as big as them of course and I wish you would know that all the time because that is really a fact for me. I also know that unfortunately reality does not always work that way and that many incredible talents especially female ones do not get enough attention. It was a hard path to keep on doing what you do from what I read here so far. I don't know what to say except thank you for keeping up the fight and giving me the opportunity to see that show and the following shows I saw and I really wish you the strength to continue and I wish you the money and safety and health that is also needed for that.
For me it is always a surprise to read that people I admire for their art and personality also struggle with their choices. On a rational level I know it and that there is no perfection in existence. But still there is a part in me that always thought that if someone has what it takes to be an artist, that someone has made it to the best place there is, I just like to idealise it I think. I am a weird worshipper of art secretly believing that might be the only really good thing humans can do and probably disrespecting all the other good things people do. And I am not even an artist haaaa.
I relate to the feeling of being alone even though we are not alone in not having these boxes to tick like many other people seem to have. I always knew that owning houses, having steady jobs, birthing children and being a wife is not as interesting for me as it seems to be for many other people. I did get married actually but it was not about becoming a wife it was about the gathering and romance and symbolism of a ceremony like that and I did not even get married at home but in a different country. I also started to wonder what are the things I did wrong or should have done different now that I am in my late 30s. Funny thing is some months ago I also realised that I probably have a midlife crisis now haha. I do not regret everything but after the dream of having my own business with my own values (because at heart I am an anti-capitalist trying to survive capitalism) failed for now I just lost vision a bit plus I was fucked up by men in high positions so much now that I am just tired, very very tired. Life is fucked sometimes but we might just try to fuck it back after taking breaks here and there.
Thank you that I can be here, you are a very inspiring woman, all power to you!
I wish I could find the words to respond to this. I've been trying to comment back for several minutes, but I'm at a loss. I started tearing up while reading your post because having someone SEE me and appreciate what I do means so much. Your words made me feel understood in a very deep way. Also, and most importantly, I want you to know that connecting with people like you has been the greatest gift. Every time I want to quit everything and feel like giving up, people like you bring me back to life because these bonds we form make putting up with all the other bullshit worth it. We are not alone as long as we have each other. How's that for cheesy? Thanks for being there over the years. Thanks for continuing to stick around. Thanks for sharing. XX
thank you. I think I used to be the kind of artist who made art solely for my own purpose. But that's changed over the years. Now, one of the most rewarding things about creating and releasing music is the connection/bond it makes between myself and people like you. XX
Well, I bought the last record and listened to the hell out of it. I’ll buy the next one but that probably won’t pay the rent… it’s hard out there. I do hope you’ll keep making music but I also understand that you have to make a living somehow. The world has so devalued artists, it’s infuriating. We really need tools of mutual support, some tech that won’t vacuum up our wealth to the tech bros but actually get it to you.
Midlife crisis - I can totally relate to that! In my forties. Prime time. Medical illustrator by day. It’s cool. But what if I missed it? Sold out to pay the bills but missed my real calling as an artist-musician, in service of expressing myself instead? Was I too cowardly to pursue it? Is it too late? So I started trying to make music a few years ago. Became a synth nerd. Still working the day job, squeezing in music at night after kids… feeling like I’m deluding myself. But I released an album. I did it. Told part of my trauma story through art! No one listens to it now. Wish they would, but I get it. I don’t have time to tell everyone about it on social media everyday for a year so it kind of vanished. I’m working on my next album anyway. Even more mining of my trauma to tell more of the story, like all my heroes did. Maybe a few more will listen?. Maybe? I’ll put it into the world anyway. I don’t know why I do this but I can’t imagine not doing it.
I do think a lot about the ancient handprints they find on cave walls. I think maybe the world was covered in them on every rock and tree and the ones in the caves were the only ones that survived. They say, “I was here. I lived.” I feel like my albums, my art, are hand prints left on the world. Some may survive and some may not. But I will make them until I die. The older I get the more urgency I feel to express myself.
I hope that whatever shape your career takes, whatever you do to make money, that you will also keep leaving your print on the world in one way or another!
Funny because it sounds like we are on opposite sides of a coin but having very similar experiences. I think about the past sometimes and wish I had "sold out" or "given up" rather than having continued to pursue QK as a career. I think, what did I miss by not getting a degree in something "useful" or what did I miss by not signing the record deal to be a pop-goth teeny bopper? I will never know. I envy having the stability that traditional jobs provides. I don't see your path as any less admirable than mine. I think doing what you need to in order to provide and be responsible for yourself and others is commendable. And now you're able to do your art too and leave your mark in this world. That's kind of the best of both worlds, no?
Thank you! You’re right. That’s true in some ways. In my good days when I’m not regretting life decisions, I like to think of myself as my own patron. I can do the art I want (when I have time for it) and not have to change it for someone.
I guess this just means that it’s hard either way! We wonder about the other paths we didn’t take. Being human is hard (especially with bad systems shaping our choices). I do wish you well in the next steps of your journey. Wherever it leads. I hope you find the stability AND creative freedom you need!
Carre, if it helps any, I put out albums every two to three years like clockwork from my mid 20s - and the one I’m about to release has taken me seven goddamn years to make happen. It feels especially hard out there right now, although I’m grateful to be in a world where there’s such brilliant tools available to DIY artists. I can’t wait to hear your new record when the time is right xx
If yourself as a person is one with yourself as an artist then you are protecting yourself and your art by waiting until you're ready to put yourself and your music through the whole grueling publishing process. I theorize that PERHAPS this could be a healthy exercise in removing stress about stats and performance and publicity and etc. from your self-worth meter as it remains contingent on your status as an artist.
Or this is just pure gibberish because I myself am fucking going through it right now as a fellow creative trying to survive in this exhausting, demeaning, capitalist, patriarchal structure bullshit and I'm just trying to say that it's hard out here man and if you know right now you don't have it in you to do that little audition-parade then maybe that warning is worth listening to.
That said. Yeah man. Of course I want your new record! Every record you put out has a different sound yet is so familiarly, perfectly authentically ~Carre~ and every time I listen I'm wowed by your vulnerability because I just cannot manage to be the same way with my own art. Not yet, at least.
So if it's pressure you're looking for, yeah, I've got it for you: I need your record so I am inspired to write and put out my OWN work.
And if it helps... you're on ALL my various playlists that I've made for my various stories that I'm working on and if I ever manage to finish writing one and publish, I'll also point people to the playlist and everyone will be like "whoa Queen Kwong fucking rules."
You've been such a support and reassuring force for so many years (and through so many releases). I can't express the immense gratitude I have for you. All the ways you've shown your appreciation for what I do have made an impact on me. I think I've been able to shamelessly release stuff in the past without much thought or concern for stats, judgement, reviews, etc. because I knew there were always more songs and more records to be made. Didn't matter who cared or who didn't because once something was released, it was kinda dead to me. But, now I realize every song and every record was and is a very real piece of myself. And I value those pieces more now than I did in the past. I suppose that's a good sign? You know I will put out another record. There's no way around it. I'm just admitting that the time between finishing the record and its actual release is hell.
i just remembered i have your natal chart to look at. maybe even my amateur astrologer brain can spot what's going on in your relationship with your music.
which is such an annoying personality trait of mine (the astro girl trait), sorry!
anyway
it'll happen when it's meant to! and it'll be perfect because as always you're true to yourself. and it'll go on my "cool angsty chick FMC" playlists.
Been a part of the silent crowd, just lurking it the shadows, enjoying your music - but now being more and more fascinated through reading your write-ups. And this one really hit me. Damn!!!
In my brain, used at work to understand how other peoples brains, it's such a painful blow to read how you're working through all your things by being creative, while I've been doing the opposite. To me, feeling secure is the basis of my entire being. Hence I went to school, went to college, graduated, got a job (countless jobs by now, as none of them ever seems to please me, always searching for "the right one"), and my musical inclinations have always been kept neatly packed down in the back of my mind. The music's always been there, but I never let it become important enough to just give it a go. First I needed to secure a degree. Then a job. Need that monthly paycheck. Need that yearly salary. Need the security. Then, of course, there's been familiy, making kids, so now there's quite a few depending on me providing said security. And the older I get, the more all I wanna do is make and play music. But now, when I finally decided to give it a go, time and age has gotten in my way. Too old now. Not even close to being relevant. Musical taste is 20-30-40 years out of tune. And worklife and security still wins.
Hm. I guess I'm rambling, complaining. But what I really wanna say is You do you!!! Love your music, love your writing, and that track is friggin' awesome!!!
I don't mean to find joy in your "rambling/complaining," but it was comforting to read your comment. First, thanks for breaking your silence. Second, hearing how it is on the other side of the coin (your side), reassures me that we are all in the same boat in one way or another. I yearn for your security and your steady paycheck while you wish you could spend all your time playing music. And we both feel "too old"... Thanks for sharing, and I hope to continue to hear from you. XX
Enjoy England. I'm headed down there for ArcTanGent festival next week.
Does this mean we'll get more live shows in the UK? It's a struggle to get to London for a single night, but if you get any further north, I'll try and drag a bunch of people along.
First thing - thanks so much for sharing the track - love the song and looking forward to the new album…….. which I hope we get to hear.
I totally feel you, whilst I don’t have an artistic bone in my body, I spent my youth trying to avoid fitting in and running from any form of control and “living as a free spirit” there were many benefits however that feeling of being anchored was something I really missed. Anchored in a positive way, not necessarily jobs, partners, kids, mortgage etc but without any anchor at all I felt like I was spinning out of control or falling headlong and not being a success “at life” it kinda drove me crazy!!! Not being artistic, I have no idea how you cope with all that shit on top of being in a world where artistic creativity returns such meagre reward (financially) for originality and talent (and yet rewards a lack of both in some cases with huge reward) BUT I will say I hope you continue to use your art to inspire others who may be in the same situation as well as demonstrating your artistic integrity and unique talent - these I hope can be your “anchors” (however, appreciate they may not be enough to put food on the table / pay the rent)
As many have (more eloquently) said - I need this new record and will support you any way I can - I have loved seeing you live since the firsts album and am really excited by this new solo version of QK - it feels more real, honest and visceral and hope it goes some way for us to provide you with feedback of the importance and enjoyment of your work.
I will never know how you do what you do but I’m so fucking glad you do!
Thank you, Emile! Really good to hear that you're enjoying the solo versions of the live shows. I have a long ways to go to get to where I want the shows to be before I can feel totally confident being onstage by myself, but I'm glad you'll be there supporting me while I go through that process. XX
From a completely selfish angle I want you to record, release and tour the arse out of your new record (Derby and/or Nottingham would be great) but you need to do you… by that I mean whatever makes you happy and look after yourself and those you hold dear. It get it must be tiring trying to get the recognition you deserve. Having been lucky enough to see you perform the linked track I think it’s coming. Keep the faith we all love you. X
I love the new song despite the unfinished unmixed unmastered condition!
I know I'm not the only one, but I'll mirror your phrasing: I NEED you to put out a new record, and you MUST find a way! It's been a pleasure to see your work develop over the years. And your substack pulls back more of the veil of those years in an engaging way that your phrase DramaTraumaForever (the new DTF 😹😿🙀) summarizes perfectly. I look forward to you sharing the process of finishing this album, and as cliché as it may sound, sharing more of your healing and growth - which I know / hope / pray you've had.
Keep creating! You are an inspiration! I am a QueenKwongFanForever - QKFF - I'll workshop it and have a better acronym next time... 😹
It's SOOOO good to hear from you. I'm truly floored that you are still listening to my rambling (through music and words), but it's the biggest compliment and reassurance a girl like me can get. Hope we can catch up properly someday. I've missed you. XX
Loved the new song, thanks for sharing it with us and I hope it makes it onto the album in whatever finished form you decide on. Hope your week is going great!
I think we are all a little bit lost and anyone who says otherwise is probably telling porky pies. Just keep moving forward, it's all we can do. Remember to enjoy the attractions along the way.
Hi Carré and thank you for this amazing Substack. Somehow there is a surreal component to it that I can read all those fascinating and moving and also sad and crazy and wild stories of your life you share here. I think I first saw you on stage about a decade ago in Germany and I would never have thought that I will be able to read this one day written by that amazing female I saw that night. And yes you were surrounded by males on stage and by some famous ones haha..but you were the absolute ⭐ and that raw and real emotion that you transported transfixed me.
Sounds cheesy and I am not a native in English and cannot find a cooler way to say it unfortunately. But even when the audience was a total bore you still had that energy. I rarely see people on stage with this special gift even though there are many great performers out there who have their own way but this "thing" that you have is something that always fascinated me.
I first recognised it in Nick Cave when I saw him play live for the first time decades ago and at some point when I randomly commented on Instagram I tried to say this in the three sentences that fit in an Instagram comment but now that here there is the opportunity to write more I really wanted to say that to you. You are as good on stage as Nick Cave, PJ Harvey, Iggy Pop etc. It's the same energy, the same boldness and emotion and I absolutely admire this and it makes me feel everything at once, it makes me feel that everything makes sense for that moment in time, it really has a cathartic and healing effect on me.
You deserve audiences as big as them of course and I wish you would know that all the time because that is really a fact for me. I also know that unfortunately reality does not always work that way and that many incredible talents especially female ones do not get enough attention. It was a hard path to keep on doing what you do from what I read here so far. I don't know what to say except thank you for keeping up the fight and giving me the opportunity to see that show and the following shows I saw and I really wish you the strength to continue and I wish you the money and safety and health that is also needed for that.
For me it is always a surprise to read that people I admire for their art and personality also struggle with their choices. On a rational level I know it and that there is no perfection in existence. But still there is a part in me that always thought that if someone has what it takes to be an artist, that someone has made it to the best place there is, I just like to idealise it I think. I am a weird worshipper of art secretly believing that might be the only really good thing humans can do and probably disrespecting all the other good things people do. And I am not even an artist haaaa.
I relate to the feeling of being alone even though we are not alone in not having these boxes to tick like many other people seem to have. I always knew that owning houses, having steady jobs, birthing children and being a wife is not as interesting for me as it seems to be for many other people. I did get married actually but it was not about becoming a wife it was about the gathering and romance and symbolism of a ceremony like that and I did not even get married at home but in a different country. I also started to wonder what are the things I did wrong or should have done different now that I am in my late 30s. Funny thing is some months ago I also realised that I probably have a midlife crisis now haha. I do not regret everything but after the dream of having my own business with my own values (because at heart I am an anti-capitalist trying to survive capitalism) failed for now I just lost vision a bit plus I was fucked up by men in high positions so much now that I am just tired, very very tired. Life is fucked sometimes but we might just try to fuck it back after taking breaks here and there.
Thank you that I can be here, you are a very inspiring woman, all power to you!
I wish I could find the words to respond to this. I've been trying to comment back for several minutes, but I'm at a loss. I started tearing up while reading your post because having someone SEE me and appreciate what I do means so much. Your words made me feel understood in a very deep way. Also, and most importantly, I want you to know that connecting with people like you has been the greatest gift. Every time I want to quit everything and feel like giving up, people like you bring me back to life because these bonds we form make putting up with all the other bullshit worth it. We are not alone as long as we have each other. How's that for cheesy? Thanks for being there over the years. Thanks for continuing to stick around. Thanks for sharing. XX
Thank you so much, it means a lot to me that my words mean something to you. No, we are not alone, it is cheesy but true ❤️
The world needs a new Queen Kwong record. For real though, your music & art means a whole lot to a lot of people.
thank you. I think I used to be the kind of artist who made art solely for my own purpose. But that's changed over the years. Now, one of the most rewarding things about creating and releasing music is the connection/bond it makes between myself and people like you. XX
Well, I bought the last record and listened to the hell out of it. I’ll buy the next one but that probably won’t pay the rent… it’s hard out there. I do hope you’ll keep making music but I also understand that you have to make a living somehow. The world has so devalued artists, it’s infuriating. We really need tools of mutual support, some tech that won’t vacuum up our wealth to the tech bros but actually get it to you.
Midlife crisis - I can totally relate to that! In my forties. Prime time. Medical illustrator by day. It’s cool. But what if I missed it? Sold out to pay the bills but missed my real calling as an artist-musician, in service of expressing myself instead? Was I too cowardly to pursue it? Is it too late? So I started trying to make music a few years ago. Became a synth nerd. Still working the day job, squeezing in music at night after kids… feeling like I’m deluding myself. But I released an album. I did it. Told part of my trauma story through art! No one listens to it now. Wish they would, but I get it. I don’t have time to tell everyone about it on social media everyday for a year so it kind of vanished. I’m working on my next album anyway. Even more mining of my trauma to tell more of the story, like all my heroes did. Maybe a few more will listen?. Maybe? I’ll put it into the world anyway. I don’t know why I do this but I can’t imagine not doing it.
I do think a lot about the ancient handprints they find on cave walls. I think maybe the world was covered in them on every rock and tree and the ones in the caves were the only ones that survived. They say, “I was here. I lived.” I feel like my albums, my art, are hand prints left on the world. Some may survive and some may not. But I will make them until I die. The older I get the more urgency I feel to express myself.
I hope that whatever shape your career takes, whatever you do to make money, that you will also keep leaving your print on the world in one way or another!
Funny because it sounds like we are on opposite sides of a coin but having very similar experiences. I think about the past sometimes and wish I had "sold out" or "given up" rather than having continued to pursue QK as a career. I think, what did I miss by not getting a degree in something "useful" or what did I miss by not signing the record deal to be a pop-goth teeny bopper? I will never know. I envy having the stability that traditional jobs provides. I don't see your path as any less admirable than mine. I think doing what you need to in order to provide and be responsible for yourself and others is commendable. And now you're able to do your art too and leave your mark in this world. That's kind of the best of both worlds, no?
Thank you! You’re right. That’s true in some ways. In my good days when I’m not regretting life decisions, I like to think of myself as my own patron. I can do the art I want (when I have time for it) and not have to change it for someone.
I guess this just means that it’s hard either way! We wonder about the other paths we didn’t take. Being human is hard (especially with bad systems shaping our choices). I do wish you well in the next steps of your journey. Wherever it leads. I hope you find the stability AND creative freedom you need!
Carre, if it helps any, I put out albums every two to three years like clockwork from my mid 20s - and the one I’m about to release has taken me seven goddamn years to make happen. It feels especially hard out there right now, although I’m grateful to be in a world where there’s such brilliant tools available to DIY artists. I can’t wait to hear your new record when the time is right xx
You are an inspiration, in so many ways! XX
If yourself as a person is one with yourself as an artist then you are protecting yourself and your art by waiting until you're ready to put yourself and your music through the whole grueling publishing process. I theorize that PERHAPS this could be a healthy exercise in removing stress about stats and performance and publicity and etc. from your self-worth meter as it remains contingent on your status as an artist.
Or this is just pure gibberish because I myself am fucking going through it right now as a fellow creative trying to survive in this exhausting, demeaning, capitalist, patriarchal structure bullshit and I'm just trying to say that it's hard out here man and if you know right now you don't have it in you to do that little audition-parade then maybe that warning is worth listening to.
That said. Yeah man. Of course I want your new record! Every record you put out has a different sound yet is so familiarly, perfectly authentically ~Carre~ and every time I listen I'm wowed by your vulnerability because I just cannot manage to be the same way with my own art. Not yet, at least.
So if it's pressure you're looking for, yeah, I've got it for you: I need your record so I am inspired to write and put out my OWN work.
And if it helps... you're on ALL my various playlists that I've made for my various stories that I'm working on and if I ever manage to finish writing one and publish, I'll also point people to the playlist and everyone will be like "whoa Queen Kwong fucking rules."
You've been such a support and reassuring force for so many years (and through so many releases). I can't express the immense gratitude I have for you. All the ways you've shown your appreciation for what I do have made an impact on me. I think I've been able to shamelessly release stuff in the past without much thought or concern for stats, judgement, reviews, etc. because I knew there were always more songs and more records to be made. Didn't matter who cared or who didn't because once something was released, it was kinda dead to me. But, now I realize every song and every record was and is a very real piece of myself. And I value those pieces more now than I did in the past. I suppose that's a good sign? You know I will put out another record. There's no way around it. I'm just admitting that the time between finishing the record and its actual release is hell.
i just remembered i have your natal chart to look at. maybe even my amateur astrologer brain can spot what's going on in your relationship with your music.
which is such an annoying personality trait of mine (the astro girl trait), sorry!
anyway
it'll happen when it's meant to! and it'll be perfect because as always you're true to yourself. and it'll go on my "cool angsty chick FMC" playlists.
Been a part of the silent crowd, just lurking it the shadows, enjoying your music - but now being more and more fascinated through reading your write-ups. And this one really hit me. Damn!!!
In my brain, used at work to understand how other peoples brains, it's such a painful blow to read how you're working through all your things by being creative, while I've been doing the opposite. To me, feeling secure is the basis of my entire being. Hence I went to school, went to college, graduated, got a job (countless jobs by now, as none of them ever seems to please me, always searching for "the right one"), and my musical inclinations have always been kept neatly packed down in the back of my mind. The music's always been there, but I never let it become important enough to just give it a go. First I needed to secure a degree. Then a job. Need that monthly paycheck. Need that yearly salary. Need the security. Then, of course, there's been familiy, making kids, so now there's quite a few depending on me providing said security. And the older I get, the more all I wanna do is make and play music. But now, when I finally decided to give it a go, time and age has gotten in my way. Too old now. Not even close to being relevant. Musical taste is 20-30-40 years out of tune. And worklife and security still wins.
Hm. I guess I'm rambling, complaining. But what I really wanna say is You do you!!! Love your music, love your writing, and that track is friggin' awesome!!!
I don't mean to find joy in your "rambling/complaining," but it was comforting to read your comment. First, thanks for breaking your silence. Second, hearing how it is on the other side of the coin (your side), reassures me that we are all in the same boat in one way or another. I yearn for your security and your steady paycheck while you wish you could spend all your time playing music. And we both feel "too old"... Thanks for sharing, and I hope to continue to hear from you. XX
It's giving getaway montage! It's giving tiktok viral! It's giving breakout lead single!!!
Shit, if only i had the energy to TikTok my mid-life crisis in real time. it would involve a lot of crying into bowls of spaghetti.
The song is fire!
Clichéd, expected comment: NEED your new album to come, you MUST find a way.
Seriously though (not that the above isn't serious, but yeah, "comedy"...), new song is fking great and unexpected.
New country?
Thank you. Done! I will find a way! That's all I needed. Yes, moved to England (for now)!
Sweet. Glad to be of service, hahah.
Enjoy England. I'm headed down there for ArcTanGent festival next week.
Does this mean we'll get more live shows in the UK? It's a struggle to get to London for a single night, but if you get any further north, I'll try and drag a bunch of people along.
Very catchy song and your voice is supreme!
And I love that song! 😍
Carre
First thing - thanks so much for sharing the track - love the song and looking forward to the new album…….. which I hope we get to hear.
I totally feel you, whilst I don’t have an artistic bone in my body, I spent my youth trying to avoid fitting in and running from any form of control and “living as a free spirit” there were many benefits however that feeling of being anchored was something I really missed. Anchored in a positive way, not necessarily jobs, partners, kids, mortgage etc but without any anchor at all I felt like I was spinning out of control or falling headlong and not being a success “at life” it kinda drove me crazy!!! Not being artistic, I have no idea how you cope with all that shit on top of being in a world where artistic creativity returns such meagre reward (financially) for originality and talent (and yet rewards a lack of both in some cases with huge reward) BUT I will say I hope you continue to use your art to inspire others who may be in the same situation as well as demonstrating your artistic integrity and unique talent - these I hope can be your “anchors” (however, appreciate they may not be enough to put food on the table / pay the rent)
As many have (more eloquently) said - I need this new record and will support you any way I can - I have loved seeing you live since the firsts album and am really excited by this new solo version of QK - it feels more real, honest and visceral and hope it goes some way for us to provide you with feedback of the importance and enjoyment of your work.
I will never know how you do what you do but I’m so fucking glad you do!
Take care
Xx
Thank you, Emile! Really good to hear that you're enjoying the solo versions of the live shows. I have a long ways to go to get to where I want the shows to be before I can feel totally confident being onstage by myself, but I'm glad you'll be there supporting me while I go through that process. XX
From a completely selfish angle I want you to record, release and tour the arse out of your new record (Derby and/or Nottingham would be great) but you need to do you… by that I mean whatever makes you happy and look after yourself and those you hold dear. It get it must be tiring trying to get the recognition you deserve. Having been lucky enough to see you perform the linked track I think it’s coming. Keep the faith we all love you. X
I love the new song despite the unfinished unmixed unmastered condition!
I know I'm not the only one, but I'll mirror your phrasing: I NEED you to put out a new record, and you MUST find a way! It's been a pleasure to see your work develop over the years. And your substack pulls back more of the veil of those years in an engaging way that your phrase DramaTraumaForever (the new DTF 😹😿🙀) summarizes perfectly. I look forward to you sharing the process of finishing this album, and as cliché as it may sound, sharing more of your healing and growth - which I know / hope / pray you've had.
Keep creating! You are an inspiration! I am a QueenKwongFanForever - QKFF - I'll workshop it and have a better acronym next time... 😹
It's SOOOO good to hear from you. I'm truly floored that you are still listening to my rambling (through music and words), but it's the biggest compliment and reassurance a girl like me can get. Hope we can catch up properly someday. I've missed you. XX
Loved the new song, thanks for sharing it with us and I hope it makes it onto the album in whatever finished form you decide on. Hope your week is going great!
Love the song, looking forward to the new record.
I think we are all a little bit lost and anyone who says otherwise is probably telling porky pies. Just keep moving forward, it's all we can do. Remember to enjoy the attractions along the way.
I agree, we are all lost in one way or another. Life isn't linear and maybe that's what makes it interesting.